Spm results came out yesterday and I was probably the most nervous of all out of the bunch. I talk in high pitches, sweat, hold on to people tighter than i should and stop breathing till i remember to breathe when Im really nervous. yea its bad.

But by the end of it, Im happy with my results. Elated to be honest because I wasnt expecting it.
7a+. 2a and 1a-. Fucking EST. Screwed up everyone's result slip again this year.


23 straight a's.

Went to watch Alice In Wonderland with friends after that. Watched it again today lol.
Its a fun movie! Weird..but fun.
Im as mad as a hatter!

Applyin for JPA and fillin in the form now.
Feel like a fucking illegal immigrant with the things you have to feel in.
Agama: Muslim or non-muslim.
Thats it! They dont even wanna know what religion are you. T
hey just wanna know if ur a muslim or ur not.
And then there's the Bumiputera and Non-bumiputera form.
My ancestors have been here for over a century and contributed sooo much. Its not just me..
Everyone who's considered a non bumiputera has already been here for so long.
Our families have given so much and yet we're still considered non bumiputera. Sighs.
I could go on but i duwana fester on this because it'll never change.

Pisses me off that a lot people strived so hard to achieve what they have achieved but they'll be put aside for the bumiputera's regardless of the fact that they might have scored lower than non-bumiputeras.
Pisses me off that i worked my ass off, but i might lose a scholarship because Im not a muslim.
Sighs the irony of democracy we live in.

One of the worst driving experiences ever..is thinking you've killed someone. Believe me I know how it feels like. Cos thats what almost happened yesterday. And FUCK IT. Xanga wont let me upload my fucking pics again. I actually drew diagrams to explain my accident yesterday cos when i talk bout it no one seems to really understand what happened. FUCK U XANGA.

Sighs forgive my profanities. Geram.

Anyway conclusion is i banged a guy. or rather he drove into me.
Actually its both so both of us were wrong. It was in one of the busiest streets in Penang. First time driving in the island. Mum is sitting beside me. There's a motorbike behind a trishaw.
Its fucking slow. I check to see that the coast is clear. Single dotted line road.
I slowly cut my way through and as im ready to get back into the lane. Next thing i know.

Boom!

Biker guy is literally banged up against my side window and we're both still moving while he's being dragged. Boom!
Next thing i look he's not there.
For 5 seconds, I sat there thinkin the fucktard is under my car...bloodied..and..mangled..and..cold dead..

( ok i shudnt call him a fucktard. im the fucktard this time )

Everyone starts running.. ( penang ppl are very nosy..ESPECIALLY chinese ppl..ESPECIALLY hokkien ppl..)
my mind breathes a heavy sigh as i see people help him up.
He's not dead! PEOPLE HE'S ALIVE!

Anyway thing is while i was cutting the lane..he tried to do the same thing because he was tired of waiting for the trishaw..
So it happens that our vehicles knocked each other while i was cutting back in and him cutting out.
But as always you know how this looks.
P bratty lookin driver with a big shiny new car ( yes it was the new car )
poor soul on a bike. Here's the fun part. The guy...is dumb and deaf.

I cant even feel angry cos im feeling too guilty bangin a deaf n dumb guy.

I know i was wrong but he was wrong too!! Sighs. I'll never drive in Penang again..for now.

Anyway car is ok. Guy was slightly hurt but ok. All the old people screaming hokkien insults at me. Suprisingly i was very calm bout it. Only when i got back into the car was i on the verge of tears thinking " I could have killed him ".

Daxing's right. Im not the best driver ever.

All i can say is that i learnt from this and...shit happens.

             I know i know. I abandoned you for four months now. I've missed you!

( technically the only reason im writing this is because my bf says he misses reading you. Its like taking a tour into my thoughts which i find dumb considering the fact that I share my thoughts with him all the time. But alas, something bout being in love makes you do the things you feel so reluclant to)

Its not like i forgot about you. well..not all the time.
You did enter my mind from time to time but everytime you did i considered all the pictures to had to be uploaded and you cant blame me for that!
Your master, Xanga pisses the shit outta me sometimes.
Everytime i try to load photos something goes wrong. Could you blame me for feeling dishearten everytime i tried to blog? Could you??

I know you've missed me so im here to update you bout my last few months.

November

Spm oh spm. It was 3 weeks of mental torture.
When the last paper came, i was so mentally tired that I actually wrote the wrong code on my Chem.paper3 and the teachers lost my paper.
They eventually found it and changed the code heh. Left school in my uniform for the last time and boy it was an emo day

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I've never really thought bout it, but high school is quite a beautiful place.


With Zhi wei.


Qiu xi being..qiu xi.

December

After Spm ended, on that day itself, we left for Batu Feringghi. Stayed at some apartment which i cant recall the name but it was everything that i expected and more.
My friends and I literally slept at the balcony while looking out for shooting stars.
I'll always remember those days. And it didnt end there.
We partied like there was no tomoro.
Christmas parties.
New year parties.
It was a really amazing way to spend out last days together. Spent Christmas at Orchard, Sg again and boy did i shop. Brought back 17 pieces of clothing, these killer heels from F21 and a bag. And hence got a shopping ban from bf. =.="



All my girls!( with a few missing)


 
Christmas party at Amelia's.



Party at Michael's which i dont seem to have a group photo of.



New year party at Meng Wah's.
(He's the one holding a watermelon. Only God knows why)

I learnt to ride a motorcycle that night!
Granted i almost hit my own car but I learnt how to ride a bike!

January

A month of warm fuzzy love. Trip to Phuket with the bf for 5 days and days in Kl after that with his family. Need i say more. ♥.

Lovers in paradise

Alas I gained weight like crazy following the trip. Thai food is just too good to resist.
And I dyed my hair too but it kinda turned out to be a disaster. Came out looking like everything i didnt want it too.
Daxing likes it. Says it adds some spice to my look.
Mum hates it. She says it makes me look like an Ah lien.
Oh well i'll just dye it again when the time comes.

Spent my other days playing boardgames with Daxing and his brothers
( they're like..boardgame freaks..but in a good way XD ).
Probably one of the most memorable plays was Cluedo with Daxing, Ming yu, Jason...
and Wayne. Oh Wayne.
He only won because Daxing screwed up, Ming made the most stupid mistake, Jason was just..so so lost and far off from winning..and I..I got cheated by Daxing and Ming who didnt bother to tell anyone the last clock card was coming up.
Oh Wayne. Luck favoured you that day.


Kudos to Mingyu for this. Pure genius.

Went to KL to register for my course. I am now a Taylorian!

February

Cleaning duty every single day. I would start off my day with breakfast, then head off to the new house to do nothing but clean clean clean. From dawn till dusk. CLEAN CLEAN CLEAN. Mum made me wash and scrub every nook and cranny. I swear I felt like I was channeling Adrian Monk. Moved in on the Thursday before Chinese New Year. Not much photos except some vain ones of myself.


Finally got a pair of shades after so long.



Pierced time and time again. I must have had at least 8 piercings on my ears because it kept closing and i kept having to pierce time and time again.

Chinese New Year was amazing! I love spending time with my cousins and just hanging out. Went out for supper at 2 am every night. Went out every few nights with my girls. Just hung out and talked.

Concerning my baby

Yes. MY baby.

This was Vynson a few months ago.


Behold the Vynson now.


He got fat! Like me. =D. He can speaks now and loves hugs and kisses =D.

Well thats pretty much it, blog. Nuthing much more I can tell you. Simplified it as best as i could. I solemnly swear to visit you more often now that things have settled down.
-hugs and kisses-